I want to say that I have left everything behind while I seek to share Jesus. The fact is, I haven’t. It is a process. Gideon, when God told him to tear down the idols, built by his very own father, was so afraid that he did it in the middle of the night. Leaving behind old fears and patterns takes time. Here are a few things Im learning to leave behind.
Perfection. I want to be a perfect mom, perfect wife, perfect friend. I can’t be. Perfectionism does not make us available to be used by God. It is through our weaknesses that God’s strength is shown.
Fear. I am learning to let fear lead me rather than letting it control me. I will probably always deal with fear in some shape or form, but I can not let it rule the decisions that I make. Instead I grasp hold of the truth that God is with me, He loves me no matter whether I succeed or fail.
Control. I want to control certain things that happen in my life, in my children’s life, and in the lives of others. I am not the sole decision maker in any category of those in my life! Instead of putting the control in another persons hands, I must learn to rest that control in my Father’s hands. I must learn to let go of control and know that God is my ultimate place of safety to bring my worries and burdens.
One thing that I am not leaving is the absolute truth that Jesus is The Way, The Truth, and The Life. No one comes to the Father except through Him. (John 14:6) May we be wise to be in the Word to know what Truth is. As a knowledge bearer of Christ, we must seek to speak truth and learn to speak it more and more in a grace filled way.
I leave behind old patterns of thinking to press on towards Jesus.
Romans 12:2 Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect.
Hebrews 12:1.2b Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfector of faith.